Winding Down/Downsizing

[Sigma Morgan]

So its been over two years, ups, downs, etc etc. I've never been the best at translating my actual feels, but I'm gonna try. So for the past few months to half year I've thought of leaving the forum a few times, though I haven't and found reasons to stay, and some threads I really enjoy and some plans to keep me interested though most of the time they stay just that, plans.

So, more recently, these couple of months, I've just had no interest in the forum at all, not entirely sure why, but it just feels like a chore at times, and I have trouble maintaining interest in things. I just feel tired a lot of the time, and I don't really think I ever truly enjoy doing anything anymore. I think it's been that way since even before I joined the forum.

A lot of the time, even when I do find the energy to write it feels more like going through the motions and not really caring anymore, it's just a temporary check off the list until the next one comes in.

I have slowly started getting rid of characters I rarely use, don't have interest in using, or just never ended up using and giving them to a friend. I think after this next round of cuts, that might be where I leave my roster. I have no intentions of cutting more or making more. Truth is, I've probably wasted so much money on art I've barely looked at, and when I need the money, it's ironic to remember where a bit of it went.

But to the point. I'll be cancelling stuff, my goals to get the total thread count under ten soon to be honest. I'm not fully quitting, not yet at least, though to be honest I feel like that is an inevitability, whether it's me formally quitting or other things. Though honestly, I think having PPV obligations is probably the real reason I haven't completely quit or taken a massive hiatus.

TLDR, I suck, I'm dumb, I have too much stuff to do without the interest or motivation to do it.

[Blade ocs]

Ya some times away would probably help. I felt like that at one point to be hisnetm limiting yourself sounds like the best thing you can do for yourself atm.