I Need Time To Myself

[Pegasus]

I know CaptainL said I was on a break from LAW and social media, but I can’t in good conscience take a break without telling everyone here what my situation is. I’m not doing this for attention or sympathy, I’m just done. I’m fucking done. Work sucks, friends (IRL, not here) got into politics too much and drove me out of the group chat, constantly pretty much told “you’re on your own” when trying to solve things (again IRL), get dragged into so much fucking drama! (Again IRL), and among other stuff. I must have pissed off the wrong person to just get this awful chain reaction passed down to me. I give up trying to stop it. It’s never going to fucking end at this rate.

Legit almost punched a hole through the wall today at work, because I’m just so fucking sick and tired and pissed. Crashing out as people say. So, I’m staying off here for my own good and for everyone else’s good. I don’t want to accidentally outlash at anybody here, because you guys don’t deserve that. Nobody does. I’m in therapy and that’s about as much help as I’ll get right now. If everybody can just cool the drama around me, it’d be wonderful, but I’m not too hopeful. I’m going to focus on WFPW and my own things for right now. This ain’t me leaving LAW. I’ve got too much invested here to throw it all away and there’s too many great people here. I needed a place to vent this. I can’t do it nowhere else. There’s my family and my therapist, but you guys at least need to know what’s going on too. I’m really hoping there is some end to this and I could use all the kind words and reassurance I can get. I’m at rock bottom. And I’m not making any of it up. I know I take multiple breaks, but when my mental health is downgraded to this, I ain’t got much choice. I’ll stay off longer. Probably a month right now. All my current threads are on hold until this month break is up. You can reply to them, but replies from me will be delayed until I’m in the right head space.

Thanks for reading and understanding. Pegasus out.

[FreshBritishSalmon]

You are doing the right thing. Focus on getting yourself in the right frame of mind (Not meant in a harsh sense, meant as way of getting the help you require), and ease yourself back in when you, and only you, are confident you are feeling alright. You have nothing to apologise for. I am deeply sorry to hear of your plight...

[Hagen-Autem]

Personally, as long as we've known each other, I've never thought of you as drama. When mental health needs to be attended to, taking the time to tell everyone else that you're going to take a break is just being polite, not wanting to draw attention to yourself. And it's a consideration that is very much appreciated, because it represents what we mean to someone with your talents.

I can understand the situation a bit, I'd like to think. Besides in my opinion, the worst thing people can do is segregate others over political issues. If those irl friends did that to you, they are a walking sack of dung. They don't know what they're missing by leaving you, and may they rot for hurting you.

I know I shouldn't say it like this, but I don't feel like dedicating nice words to people who harm others just for political or religious issues.

Take the break you need, enjoy what you love with the people who are there with you, whether on irl or the forums or elsewhere, and love yourself as much as we love you, Pegasus. Keep going for yourself, because we plan to be there for you in whatever way we can!