Christmas Romance Thread: Only Satellites (Something that keeps us going on) (for CaptainL)

[RedShinigami]

How Harmonia had needed to hear to those words, Molly could'nt imagine, only that Harmonias eyes felt with tears too as finally, everything that was piled up in her broke lose...

Harmonia had tried not to, but all these feelings were to overwhelming...
But she wanted to keep calm, be a lady, show Molly what class act she was...
All was out of the window as Harmonias face turned into a grimace of sadness before Mollys eyes.

"Molly...I...I..."
She could'nt speak properly as constant hickups from her surpressed cries where appearing between her sentences.
And suddenly Molly was hugged tight, Harmonias face in her scarf and shoulder as the Ex-Model cried...and cried...and cried.
"I amof fwo sowy Mowwy...", she sobbed into Mollys shoulder, holding on to her for dear life.
"It is just...just..."
Harmonia had turned her head sideways.
"No one treated me like you. Ever. I always just had to nod and smile. No one that held me in the night, one to talk too.", she whispered.
"And you,you are so good to me.", she whispered.
"I could'nt believe that this is possible but it is. That finally someone cares about me and loves me. I was so long alone Molly that I thought I just have to live without it", she said as all the grief and the pain of 6 years swept out of Harmonia and onto Molly. And Harmonia hoped she could withstand it.
"It hurt so much Molly, it hurt so much...", she whispered as she clung to her lover and slowly the ferris wheel went down.
And suddenly Harmonia did'nt felt that well anymore.
She felt bad, embarressed about the "Scene" she had made and so both women stepped out from the Ferris wheel, silent.
Harmonia spoke no word, not turning around.
"I call you a cab. Thank you Molly..."
She turned around.
Her face red and full with tears.
"For that little dream...", she ended and put out her cellphone.
She called the cab and went to Molly.
"Well...it was a night to remember, hm?", she asked, suddenly all energy drained out of her.
She thought she blew it, destroyed the little bud of love that was about to spread.
She kissed Mollys forehead but it felt cold, quick and emotionless.
Harmonia hugged Molly, the same thing. Cold, emotionless.
"I had fun...I call you, yes?", she asked and let go of Molly.
"Have fun with your stuff...Good night Molly.", she said, turned around and slowly dissapeared in the crowd, Molly saw only her hair sticking out at some point...
Harmonias eyes were shut with tears...why went this all so wrong? Where...
She turned around, seeing the ferris wheel.
Maybe she did'nt deserve it...
It all went so well...she had screamed her love...and now Harmonia was just ashamed.
And felt, as ever, unworthy...

[CaptainL]

As soon as she'd finished speaking her part, Molly looked up at Harmonia, her big blue eyes welling up with tears of joy. She met the model with a smile, one that practically glowed. She meant what she said with every bit of her heart, and speaking those words into reality, making all of this real and official, made her feel a wave of relief come over her, letting all the tension drain from her body. She'd said it. It was all happening. It was all coming true - and she wouldn't have wanted it any other way.

But just then, Harmonia started crying. Molly paused, the color slowly draining from her face, and her mouth hung open. Was something wrong? She didn't know what. But the thought of Harmonia being hurt, or feeling sad...it made an ache tighten in the Englishwoman's chest. She wanted to keep her safe, to do whatever she needed, to be the person she could rely on. She'd seen what was really going on in her head tonight, and she knew that it was what she wanted - what she needed. If Harmonia was upset, Molly wanted to fix that.

"M-Moni, is...is something wrong..?" she began. But then, the model hugged her tight, burying her face into her shoulder. Molly quickly followed in turn, pulling Harmonia close. She leaned against her shoulder as well, nodding gently to each word she said; she could feel the strands of her hair ever so slightly tickling her cheek from how close they were.

"Don't be sorry, Moni..." Molly said, her voice as soft as a whisper. "It's okay. There's nothing to be sorry about...I'm so sorry that you had to go through all of that." Indeed, she sniffled a little, just thinking of someone as wonderful as Harmonia having to feel so isolated, so helpless and alone. "But...it's going to be better. I promise you...I'll do all of that for you. You won't need to be alone any more..."

As the ferris wheel turned again, and the two of them began descending back down to earth, Harmonia went still. It was like she was a different woman entirely from the honest, passionate Harmonia who had poured her heart out moments ago without a care in the world. Now, she seemed cold, silent, indifferent. Molly wondered what could have possibly caused this to come over her. She looked back at Harmonia as they came down, half-wondering if she would say anything more and half-hoping that her curiosity would get the Austrian to speak up. But that never came.

Even as the two stepped off the ferris wheel, Harmonia was unmoved. As she walked out and dialed for the cab, she seemed to be going through the motions, with no thought or feeling. Even when she hugged Molly, she didn't seem to care. The frown grew across the English girl's face. Molly looked back at Harmonia the whole time, but the model's gaze was fixed ahead of her, staring out into the distance.

"You're...you're welcome, Moni," Molly said, frowning as she saw the tears in her eyes. "Really, it was...I'm never going to forget it. Thanks for sharing it with me."

Molly hoped her words could cheer Harmonia up - but instead, the model turned and ran off as soon as they had let go of each other. And at that moment, Molly gasped. "...Moni?"

Molly stayed there, her mouth hanging open as her hand reached out, waiting for Harmonia to turn around and take it. But she never did. She disappeared into the crowd, and there she was gone.

Molly stood, unmoving. She stared into space. She could barely even think; the turn of events had left her stunned. What was going through Harmonia's mind, she asked herself? Would she be okay? Did she...still love her?

She didn't know how much time had passed before she was brought out of her senses by the sound of the cab pulling up to her. But even as she stepped on board, Molly kept staring out into the distance, waiting for Harmonia's face to show itself again.

[RedShinigami]

But Harmonia would'nt appear again.
Instead she was sitting under one the big christmas tress that illuminated the scene and cried her eyes out.
Harmonia made for a miserable sight as she sat there, hunched over,caught in a crying frenzy.
How could all went so wrong?
By now she and Molly should sit together, having a good time. But Harmonia blew it. As she always did.
With her career, her life, what was the point?
What no one realised and even Harmonia tried to ignore was how traumatic the death of her parents had been for her.
Harmonia was always a child that needed love, needed shelter, needed confirmation.
All of this was provided plentyful by her family.
Harmonia, as almost every child lived in a bubble were death was nonexistent until it struck and made the protective bubble pop.

This was in form of the death of their grandfather from a heart attack when she and Finella were twelve. Especially Finella suffered from the loss of one of the only persons that understood her. The other one was Harmonia.
But Finella seemed to grasp and take it better then Harmonia did. The blonde girl suffered long and the untimely death of her grandmother three years later sent her down the spiral even further.
Finella always was the tougher one of the sisters, going into fights, watching out for Harmonia who was a little shy and anxious, nothing like the women who she was today.

The brutal death of her parents when the girls were 16 were the last nail in the coffin.
From this day on Harmonias life turned into a rollercosaster.
Suddenly she was on her own. Her uncle nothing more then a manager. Finella somewhere she could'nt reach.
And even if Harmonia earned fame, fortune and celebrity status, she still was the traumatized, lonely girl that had lost all that was precious to her.

Then suddenly...
Something spoke to her...from the deepest corners of her conciousness she heard a voice...her voice.

What are you doing?
What do you mean?
Molly is still there you know.
Leave me alone.
If I should leave you alone why am I speaking to you now?
Maybe I snapped, what do I know!
No you have'nt. In fact you are as clearminded as ever.
Fine so what do you want.
That girl loves you.
I know, don't you think I don't know?
Why did you leave her then?
Because I have embarressed me and her. Why would she want me after such a scene.
Did you ask her what she thought?
No...
Did she say what she thought?
She held me in her arms and promised me that she would look after me
And you?
Ran away like a cowardly bitch...
Ulimately?
Hurting her.
Not necessarily. She will be confused yes but I don't see her as the type who gots easily hurt.
Molly is strong. Thats why I fell in love with her...
So why did you leave?
Goddamit I already told you l don't know
Oh you know
Fine, fine I was fucking afraid!

Suddenly everything went silent, got thrown in the background.
Harmonia looked up and saw the moon, the stars and a satellite flying over hear.
Her eyes went wide.

You get it, huh?
I don't know...
This girl adores you, you were her idol, a person she looked up to and which she idolized.
So what?
Molly loves with every flaw that you have
That is'nt true, she would be embarressed when I do such a scene again
Are you always talking so much shit?
I...
Harmonia Edelstein, you are not the same person you were six years ago
But...
The death of your parents was not your fault.
...
You don't deserve to be alone
...
You deserve to have a good life
...
You fought and you became strong
...
You are a star
...stop...

YOU ARE A SUPERSTAR!

And this evening, the old, unsure and lonely Harmonina Edelstein was history, replaced by everything she had worked on the last two months.
She was'nt the model anymore, that got pushed around and not taken seriously...
This time everyone would see her shine as the true Superstar she saw herself...and that Molly saw in her.

Harmonia jumped up from the bench and looked around.
Suddenly everything seemed so clear.
It was never that Harmonia was weak or unworthy of love but rather it was Harmonia who told herself that she was.
And finally she got in motion...
She looked around and jumpstarted away.
Her mind was filled with only one thought:
"Molly!"
"Please be there, please be there, please be there..." Harmonia ran as fast as she could, ran like she never ran in her life.
Suddenly she tripped and fell down.
"Fuck..."
She had landed facefirst but did'nt bother, what bothered her were her heels!
She grabbed for her boots and stripped them off her, she needed every advantage she could get and got up from the pavement only to face a crowd of people waiting for the skating rink.
"Let me through...please, sorry...", she said and fought her way through all the people that kept her from Molly!
She struggled through the crowd as the driver looked in the rear mirror, onto Molly.
"Where?", he just asked and nodded.
"Alright Miss."

Harmonias wet and cold feet hurt like hell as she ran like the devil, fueled by love and determination.
When she finally exited the crowd and saw the Cab driving off she wasted no time and started running again...she ran, and ran, like never before in her life.It was as if her feet wanted to leave the floor, making her fly. And Harmonia felt like an Eagle. Brave, beautfiul and gliding over everyone and everything.
Harmonia came closer and closer, the cab started to get faster and she knew she had add up to her effort.
"MOOOOOOO-LLLLLYYYYYY!!!!", she screamed and the people turned their heads in her direction.
The driver was ready to head on as suddenly he saw something in the rear mirror.
He pulled down the window and heard her scream.
"Uhm Miss...are you per chance aquainted with a loud, blonde maniac?", he asked and waited for Mollys answer.
The cardoor flung open as the Superstar opened it.
Her eyes met Mollys, Mollys eyes met Harmonia and suddenly there were no tears, no grimace. Only a big, fat smile on Harmonias face.
Confident, cool.

And still Harmonia lashed forward into Mollys arms.
"Geh nicht...geh nicht...geh nicht.", she pleaed Molly to stay with her in german and then she planted te surprised englishwomans face with kisses.
"Molly...I get it now. I get it now!", she said.
"What you see in me...what I should see in me!"
She ended the smoochattack with a big kiss on Mollys lips.
"I am a person that is strong, I am a Person that is radiant, I am a Person that makes every room seem shining bright when she appears. I am not weak, I was never weak. I have a family, friends...."
She stopped and laid her cold hands on Mollys face, her enthusiastic look becoming a longing one.
"You. Molly. I have you.", she whispered and kissed her again, shifting her body so she literally sat on Mollys lap, facing her.
"I am a Superstar...ain't I?", she smiled.
"And guess what...you are my Superstar!"
There were no more tears in Harmonias face, no shifting in her tone.
"Ladies, where too? The time is running."
"Oh shut up! Time is running nowhere for Harmonia Edelstein and Molly Forster! Drive on, I tell you when to stop!

Then she pushed the button that separated the driver from the backseats.
He should drive..it did'nt matter.
Harmonia sat next to Molly and looked at her wet feet in the ruined stockings.
Then she sighed and leaned against her love.
"Let us travel the galaxy...as long as we want."

[CaptainL]

When Molly gave the driver her address, her voice was flat and lifeless. She tried to will herself to care, but she just couldn't. No sooner had the words left her mouth that she sunk back in her seat, her body deflating as she let out a sigh and folded her arms over her lap. Her head turned to the window, watching the world pass by outside. All the stars in the sky shone down on her, and all the lights in the windows broke through the darkness. As the cab drove past a street light, the car was bathed in its glow, shining through the windows and over the seats. And yet, Molly couldn't let that light into her heart. She was sitting there in darkness, and she was sure it was all she deserved. Harmonia had given her everything, and she only wanted to thank her for even considering her worthy of the offer. She'd even let her see her true face, the one she'd never dare to show anyone else. And then...Molly had thrown it all away, and scared Harmonia off. She didn't know why, or how, but their relationship was over before it'd even begun.

But then, the Englishwoman heard the scream. "Huh..!?" In an instant, the life flowed back into her. She sat straight up in her seat, glancing back and forth. She knew that voice, and she could've sworn it had called her name. But it couldn't be. That was impossible! And yet, Molly didn't want it to be. No matter what the odds might have been, Molly wanted her wildest dreams to come true. That somehow, Harmonia would turn around, and come running back into her arms.

"Wait, slow down-!" Molly called out. Her smile was wide, and her eyes were aglow just thinking of how Harmonia could be running back to her. What the driver asked her next caused her to gasp, and her heart to beat faster. It only confirmed what Molly hoped so dearly! "Yes-! That's my-"

She didn't get a chance to finish. Harmonia was already on her way, and the car door flung open to reveal her standing there. Molly spun back around to face her, and her jaw dropped. "Moni-!!" she cheered, throwing her arms around the model as she came closer. She barely needed to invite her in before she climbed in her lap and met her with kisses, and Molly giggled, squeezing her tighter. Tears ran down her cheeks now, but they were tears of the purest joy. Now, all was right with the world.

"Moni, I was so worried-! I thought...I thought you'd be gone forever-!" Molly's words were halfway into laughter; she simply couldn't contain her happiness. She nuzzled up against Harmonia, kissing her all the while; as their warm bodies nestled into one another, the Austrian could hear how fast and strong her heart was beating. And every word Harmonia spoke only sent Molly's emotions soaring higher. This was it; this was what she'd wanted to hear from her all along! Harmonia was everything to her - and now, Molly knew, she was everything to her, too.

When Harmonia turned to sit in Molly's lap, the Englishwoman looked back up at her, her smile wide and her eyes brimming with tears. As silly as they might have been...the words that came out of her mouth were what Molly always wanted to be true. "It's true, Moni. You'll always be a Superstar to me...and I want to be that to you, too!" With no further questions asked, Molly hugged tighter to Harmonia's shoulders. She pulled herself in closer, meeting her with a kiss that contained everything she'd felt tonight.

Even when she pulled back, and the driver expressed his exasperation, Molly couldn't feel embarrassed. She only had so much room in her heart for feelings, and now it was overflowing with the happiness and love she felt, right here at Harmonia's side. "Yeah...as long as it's with you, it's okay," she said. Molly leaned in at Harmonia's side, her shoulder resting against her own, and beneath them, she took the model - no, the Superstar - hand in hand, giving it a gentle squeeze. No matter what happened, Molly didn't want to let go.

[RedShinigami]

Thx, for reading!
Hope you had as much fun as we had writing it!
Starting the new year with a new couple and team seems like a vey good thing to me

[RedShinigami]

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