I'm sorry
Posted: Wed Oct 11, 2017 11:06 pm
hey everyone, I guess I'm back
I don't know how I'll react to responses on this thread, but they'll probably just hurt to read, not that I deserve to be welcomed back. I'd appreciate if nobody were to reply here, but I understand if you have something you want to say publically. For everyone who doesn't know, I really really overreacted to the results of a poll a couple weeks ago and ended up "deleting" all my posts. It's a lot more complicated and stupid than that, but that is the easiest and quickest way I can put it. It's pretty clear now that there is something wrong with me, and I deserve whatever hate or frustration anyone might feel towards me, but I regret it immensely.
I've been trying for most of the day to fix some of the damage I did, I found a few of my posts were archived, but not all. Winner is trying to find a way to restore my posts back to how they were, but chances are that what I've done is permanent at this point. I may end up sitting at my desk re-writing every single one of my posts tonight, but I don't really know.
I'm going to post asuka up again, since her bio at least was rescued by an archiving site. If nobody wants anything to do with me ever again, I will understand, but know that there is nothing I would like more than to go back and stop it from happening.
I don't really know what else to write, so I'm sorry. If I had a thread with you and you want to end it, we can, just send me a PM. If I had a thread with you and you want to finish it, we will. Hopefully I can make up for myself soon, somehow.
I don't know how I'll react to responses on this thread, but they'll probably just hurt to read, not that I deserve to be welcomed back. I'd appreciate if nobody were to reply here, but I understand if you have something you want to say publically. For everyone who doesn't know, I really really overreacted to the results of a poll a couple weeks ago and ended up "deleting" all my posts. It's a lot more complicated and stupid than that, but that is the easiest and quickest way I can put it. It's pretty clear now that there is something wrong with me, and I deserve whatever hate or frustration anyone might feel towards me, but I regret it immensely.
I've been trying for most of the day to fix some of the damage I did, I found a few of my posts were archived, but not all. Winner is trying to find a way to restore my posts back to how they were, but chances are that what I've done is permanent at this point. I may end up sitting at my desk re-writing every single one of my posts tonight, but I don't really know.
I'm going to post asuka up again, since her bio at least was rescued by an archiving site. If nobody wants anything to do with me ever again, I will understand, but know that there is nothing I would like more than to go back and stop it from happening.
I don't really know what else to write, so I'm sorry. If I had a thread with you and you want to end it, we can, just send me a PM. If I had a thread with you and you want to finish it, we will. Hopefully I can make up for myself soon, somehow.