Something Needed To Be Said
Posted: Sat Jan 21, 2023 8:55 pm
Yuki Kazikura didn't normally do things like this. It was rare for her to take anything personally - and if she did, she tended to blame herself before she blamed the other party. For her, wrestling wasn't something to be pursued for any higher goal; it was how she chased after the sense of pride and satisfaction she was looking for in her life, and it was the only place she saw herself fitting in. Wealth, or attention, or proving herself better than anyone didn't factor into it, only what she got out of it - and that informed how she came away from her matches, too. If she wasn't happy with how a match went, she would focus on doing better next time. Her opponents weren't to blame. If anything, she was for not doing better.
This wasn't to say there weren't matches that stuck with Yuki - far from it. She still looked back with regret on her loss to Rose Gold at We Are LAW 3; the match that had marked the start of Rose's path to infamy, and all she could think of was how, if she hadn't let herself freeze up and be blinded by the shock of realizing that her devious opponent was the same girl who had encouraged her to reach for such heights in the first place, she could well have stopped Rose in her tracks before she acquired the reign of terror she had since. Her barbed wire match against Amano Jaku had shown her what happened if she pushed herself to her limits, and just how afraid she was of what she could become. And, most relevantly to today, there was her most recent defeat - that against Angelina Tarrant. The match where she had tried with all her might to keep the Marauder down, that had pushed her far beyond what she thought her body could bear, and still ended with her back giving out on her just as she was setting up her finisher, leaving Angelina to move in for the kill.
It was far from the first time Yuki had tried her very best, only to find it wasn't enough. In fact, that was exactly the problem - that this kept happening to her. But this was a blow that stung more than any before it. This time, Yuki by all means should have beaten Angelina. She was seconds away from knocking her senseless, where she would have no hope but to eat the pin. But thanks to her back giving out at just the right time, she had gotten yet another black stain on her record - another loss when she deserved so much more.
Yuki was willing to break her code of silence, just this once. This time, she needed to speak up.
Yuki got a few cheers as she stepped out from behind the curtains, but she couldn't spare anyone any looks as she made her way down to the ring. She kept her head down, a sullen expression on her face as she passed with a sigh. There was too much on her mind to find it in her to be flippant about anything. When she got to the ring, Yuki stepped up to the apron, then climbed through the ropes. As the announcer handed her a microphone, she looked back at the crowd, and she let out a sigh. She couldn't believe she was doing this. Was this too petty? Was this too low? But...it was better than the guilt of knowing she was a disappointment. She needed to set the record straight.
"So," she began. "I'm not usually the type to make speeches like these, so I want to keep this brief. It's...it's about my last match with Angelina Tarrant." Just saying those words sent a shiver down Yuki's spine as she recalled what a crushing turnaround it had been, but she kept going regardless. "I'm sure you all know what happened. So I don't need to recap anything. But just to keep it brief...I had her. I had her!" Yuki's fingers squeezed tighter around the microphone in frustration. "I was this close. I had her in the Warrior Sacrifice, I was about to bring her down, and then...then..."
Yuki almost couldn't find it in herself to say it - she looked off, letting out a long sigh as her shoulders slumped. "...with all the strain I'd taken on my back, leading up to that moment...I had no choice. I gave out...and I had to let her go."
She grit her teeth, not even caring to listen too closely to the crowd's reactions. "Listen, the reason I'm out here to say this today...I just want to make it brief. I don't want anyone to get the wrong idea of what happened. Simply put...Angelina Tarrant got lucky." Such a bold statement drew gasps and cries of "ooooh" from the crowd, but Yuki kept going. "I don't know a better way to put it than that. If I was just a fraction of a second faster, I would have had the match won! The only thing that kept me was...it was something outside of my control."
"Listen, I don't want anyone to assume I'm just here to make excuses, so...I just want to say this. I'm not going to let this keep me down. I'm going to keep at it. I'm still going to Apex, I'm still going to keep training, and some day...some day, I have faith that I can be Lightweight Champion. But until then..."
This wasn't to say there weren't matches that stuck with Yuki - far from it. She still looked back with regret on her loss to Rose Gold at We Are LAW 3; the match that had marked the start of Rose's path to infamy, and all she could think of was how, if she hadn't let herself freeze up and be blinded by the shock of realizing that her devious opponent was the same girl who had encouraged her to reach for such heights in the first place, she could well have stopped Rose in her tracks before she acquired the reign of terror she had since. Her barbed wire match against Amano Jaku had shown her what happened if she pushed herself to her limits, and just how afraid she was of what she could become. And, most relevantly to today, there was her most recent defeat - that against Angelina Tarrant. The match where she had tried with all her might to keep the Marauder down, that had pushed her far beyond what she thought her body could bear, and still ended with her back giving out on her just as she was setting up her finisher, leaving Angelina to move in for the kill.
It was far from the first time Yuki had tried her very best, only to find it wasn't enough. In fact, that was exactly the problem - that this kept happening to her. But this was a blow that stung more than any before it. This time, Yuki by all means should have beaten Angelina. She was seconds away from knocking her senseless, where she would have no hope but to eat the pin. But thanks to her back giving out at just the right time, she had gotten yet another black stain on her record - another loss when she deserved so much more.
Yuki was willing to break her code of silence, just this once. This time, she needed to speak up.
Spoiler

"So," she began. "I'm not usually the type to make speeches like these, so I want to keep this brief. It's...it's about my last match with Angelina Tarrant." Just saying those words sent a shiver down Yuki's spine as she recalled what a crushing turnaround it had been, but she kept going regardless. "I'm sure you all know what happened. So I don't need to recap anything. But just to keep it brief...I had her. I had her!" Yuki's fingers squeezed tighter around the microphone in frustration. "I was this close. I had her in the Warrior Sacrifice, I was about to bring her down, and then...then..."
Yuki almost couldn't find it in herself to say it - she looked off, letting out a long sigh as her shoulders slumped. "...with all the strain I'd taken on my back, leading up to that moment...I had no choice. I gave out...and I had to let her go."
She grit her teeth, not even caring to listen too closely to the crowd's reactions. "Listen, the reason I'm out here to say this today...I just want to make it brief. I don't want anyone to get the wrong idea of what happened. Simply put...Angelina Tarrant got lucky." Such a bold statement drew gasps and cries of "ooooh" from the crowd, but Yuki kept going. "I don't know a better way to put it than that. If I was just a fraction of a second faster, I would have had the match won! The only thing that kept me was...it was something outside of my control."
"Listen, I don't want anyone to assume I'm just here to make excuses, so...I just want to say this. I'm not going to let this keep me down. I'm going to keep at it. I'm still going to Apex, I'm still going to keep training, and some day...some day, I have faith that I can be Lightweight Champion. But until then..."
